Haiku Heights – Crescendo

 

chatter crescendos,
her courage decrescendos–
ear buds to the ears…

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I felt very much down this past Saturday. Looking back, I can see why. I came very close to having a panic attack Saturday morning while I waited for my son to get out of his swim class.  It was his second session.  The first session last Saturday went great for him and I calmly read while I waited.  But this week turned out different.  I was sitting calmly reading and suddenly there were at least three different conversations going on in the same waiting room. The cacophony of voices touched a bundle of nerves in me.  And I started getting anxious and confused.  Reaching for my ear buds and the music in my iPod was the best way to sooth my nerves

Somehow, I thought anything close to a panic attack was gone from my life before this incident.  I really should know better than that by now.  I guess I forgot that this happens with anxiety. It tends to rear its ugly head when I least expect it, but I’ll be okay.  It’s not the end of the world. It has happened before.  The only reason I felt so sad and upset is because I’ve made so much progress in the past months with my anxiety.  I’ll get a little nervous here and there, but I haven’t felt the trapped, confused feeling in a long time.  All I needed was some rest, quiet time, and to remind myself to remember to breath, relax, and have faith that it’ll be alright.  Good thing it was the weekend.  I’m a sensitive, caring person that sometimes gets anxious, but not as frequently as before. There, writing it down makes me feel better about the anxiety episode.  Now, before this next Saturday swim class, I need to remember…

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“Accept all strange sensations connected with your illness. Do not fight them. Float past them. Recognize that they are temporary.”
Claire Weekes, Hope & Help For Your Nerves

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About Claudia

Hi!! My name is Claudia. Blogging is sort of a creative/therapeutic activity for me. I blog about being a wife, mother, student, caseworker, and simply being human through photography, words, music, and blog challenges. Mental illness has also been part of my life, so you'll sometimes find mental health and psychology in my posts. I've dealt with anxiety and depression most of my life. And my husband has bipolar disorder. My hope is that I may show readers that it is possible for people to live positive, productive lives despite mental illness, challenges, or frustrations. View all posts by Claudia

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