Category Archives: Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

Stuck in Obsession

“…to repeat monotonously some common word, until the sound, by dint of frequent repetition, ceased to convey any idea whatever to the mind…”
Edgar Allen Poe

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Earlier this year, I took the photo above while looking out a window waiting for a class to start. You can see the reflection of my shoes on the lower right corner. I thought of this photo when I saw Ese’s prompt for this week. I played around with the photo on my phone’s Snapseed app to make it black and white and give it a confused feeling. It reminds me of feeling stuck and obsessed within one’s thoughts and hesitating to act. And I think the quote from the Edgar Allen Poe poem also gives some description of this feeling. The times when I have felt both anxious and depressed, I also become obsessive. When I become depressed my concentration seems to diminish, and my thoughts seem to go into a swirling loop. Like the photo above shows, I’ll stare and obsess over my options and worries instead of walking down the path and taking action. Sometimes I’m able to distract, think, or pray myself out of it. But sometimes it’s too overwhelming to snap out of it, and those times I’m stuck until this altered state passes. The depression, anxiety, and obsessiveness eventually pass, but together they literally create a useless or meaningless feeling of having a wall, or window, between me and motion.

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Gratefully inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Obsession

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Morning Conflict

“I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”
E. B. White

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Sunrise, in front of my home, a few weeks ago.


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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Desire

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Bare the Sky & Soul

“There is one spectacle grander than the sea, that is the sky; there is one spectacle grander than the sky, that is the interior of the soul.”
-Victor Hugo

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Above is a photo of a beautiful “spectecle” on our way home after visiting relatives. This quote reminds me of the idea of baring your soul and sharing your thoughts and emotions.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Bare

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Lonliness

“They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars—on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.”
Robert Frost

Road to Grand CanyonI took this picture when my husband and I were driving to the Grand Canyon from Las Vegas during our honeymoon. I remembered it when I read the Robert Frost quote above, so I searched in my box of old photos and scanned it. The quote, I found when I searched for loniliness quotes on Goodreads. I thought is was perfect to express my experience with lonliness. My lonliness seems to often follow a bout of anxiety or depression that leads me to isolate myself. The isolation initially feels comforting compared to the frightful feeling I get when I’m severely anxious or depressed and around people outside of my husband and son. So to me being alone can, like a desert, be both beautiful and sad. In case you’re worried, lately, this severe anxiety/depression only seems to come along once a month during PMS. So, the isolation and lonliness doesn’t last very long. Before, it seemed more frequent. I guess the years of faith, experience, medications, and therapy have helped.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Lonliness

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Feeling Fear

“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”
Nelson Mandela

20130905-170244.jpgI took the above photo yesterday while waiting for a class to start. Since I started graduate school in 2010, I’ve had to feel fear many times in classrooms like the one above. The fear has gradually decreased in intensity over time. I owe the decrease to facing the feared presentation, discussion, assignment, or exam despite the fear. And I’ve learned that the fear may never completely go away, but I must go on and do what I have to do despite the fearful feeling. My history of panic disorder and social anxiety has made accepting that lesson very difficult, but as time goes on it’s becoming easier to accept.  Using Mr. Mandela’s words, I guess I’ve had to muster up a little courage and bravery to get through school.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Feel

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Wings Will Open

“Be as a bird perched on a frail branch that she feels bending beneath her, still she sings away all the same, knowing she has wings.”
 -Victor Hugo

Mocking Bird_2013_08_24This little mockingbird looks to be either a young bird with downy feathers or simply an adult bird that some how got it’s feathers disturbed a bit. Anyway, it opened up it’s wings and flew away once it sensed me and my camera near.  I used Picasa to add a vignette effect to the original image.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Open

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