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Rushing Waves

waves rush, unsettle

the sandy shores of grounding–

time unsettles time…

Part of the Haiku My Heart weekly challenge. This short poem is my little expression of what’s on my mind.

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Be – Haiku My Heart

to be just to be;
such awkward a buzz to be:
the bee simply flies…

Beehive Print from an 1840's Natural History Book

Beehive Print from an 1840’s Natural History Book

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Push – Haiku My Heart

nature’s order — young
bird pushed to leave it’s safe home :
mother feels teen’s push…

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Chickadee by John James Audubon

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Beauty – Haiku My Heart

beauty for a bird
distinct from that for fishes –
eye of beholder…

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Wave – Haiku My Heart

as she nears, she fears;
a curl of energy falls –
a wave, nears then leaves…

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Waves remind me of my tendency to curl up and retreat when I begin getting close to people.  I am working on not running away from making friends, but it’s not easy.  My reflex is to retreat.  I approach and then eventually I fall back just like a wave.  But, then again, like a wave, I try approaching again.

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Follow Through – Haiku My Heart

nestling dreams of flight;
grown, flies at every startle,
unaware of Strength…

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In my backyard, looking up with my camera, I had the opportunity to capture this bird soaring through the sky.

Like Jenny in the movie Forrest Gump, as a little girl I wanted to fly away some how like a bird. I felt helpless being picked on by my brother. I was the little weird sister who was not cool and ugly and no one would ever like. I wish I had super powers and could defend myself. I’m not a superhero, but I’m now an adult. And I need to be the best me I can be and keep in mind that little girl who wanted to fly away. She now has a chance to see what she can really do. Actually, I’ve had a chance for quite some time. My anxiety and depression slowed my progress down a bit (I think that’s an understatement).  Well, the anxiety and depression aren’t as bad anymore.  I need to follow through and show the little girl how healthy and strong she can really be. I, too often, have neglected my health (spiritual, mental, and physical). I guess I still hear my brother’s words in my head some how and don’t realize the “Strength” I have. I need to stop running away when I’m “startled” and be aware of my unhealthy escape habits and replace them with healthy habits. I know I have started already, but I still have more to work on for that little girl.

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Blue Skies – Haiku My Heart

longing for the clouds,
she stares at the bare blue skies,
heart beats quick, searching…

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Yes, I agree, blue skies are beautiful, but I prefer the clouds for some reason.  Why is that?  I dwelt on that thought for a while and this other thought came up.  Blue skies remind me of the agoraphobia I use to experience when my panic disorder was at its worse.  I preferred sitting or standing close to a door or exit for fear of having a panic attack and feeling confused, out of control, and frozen in fear not knowing exactly how to escape or find comfort around me.  That rarely happens anymore, but the wide blue space in the sky, without the comfort of the clouds reminds me of that feeling of being in an open crowded space and not having a way to escape or find comfort and feeling a state of panic.  Today, I’m able to be in a crowded open space and it doesn’t bother me too much.  Similarly, the blue sky doesn’t really bother me, and I can appreciate it, but I still remember the missing clouds.

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Clouds – Haiku My Heart

fluffy flowing spread –
packed fibers of nice floating,
suspended in space…

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A few weeks ago while leaving a gas station, I looked up and spotted these awesome clouds. It just happened that the sun peeked through the sign just in time.  I’ve probably mentioned this before, but I never tire of looking up at the clouds.  May sound unusual, but I don’t mind a cloudy sky.  It’s like a painting on a blue canvas.  It’s difficult to believe this painting is made of ice and water droplets.

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Cycle – Haiku My Heart

rock on precipice
rolled there by nature’s trembles –
recurring cycle…

Enchanted Rock Park near Fredericksberg, Texas in 2010.

Enchanted Rock Park near Fredericksburg, Texas in 2010.

I wrote this poem last Tuesday when I began to experience my usual monthly precipice.  Like clockwork, I’m not myself around mid month for at least a day or maybe a little more depending on what’s going on in my life at the time. The rock is my mind and emotions. My mind and emotions seem to drastically change temporarily to a state of depression and greater anxiety.   And the best solution is for me to consciously slow down, quiet down, and simplify everything. Which is not always easy with tasks and distractions all around. Basically, I need to keep the rock steady while it’s next to the edge. Then, again like clockwork, it rolls back to it’s usual spot.  Medication doesn’t seem to help this recurrent cycle.  As you probably guessed, this recurrent cycle is my experience with PMS.

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Focus – Haiku My Heart

unwavering Love,
guide my focus to the light
of true perception…

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Like the photo above shows, sometimes I have trouble focusing. In a world full of tasks and distractions, including interior distractions such as anxiety, it’s often easy to lose sight of what’s most important. For me, regular prayer and time with my family have helped me regain my focus when it so often blurs.

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