This is my six word entry #19 for Six Word Saturday:
Is bipolar taking my husband’s joy?
I’ve been feeling very sad and disappointed with my husband lately. It doesn’t seem like he has any ambition or desire to do anything except work, watch TV, surf the net on his iPhone, eat, and over sleep. He seems like he hasn’t touched me, karate, or his musical instruments in months. I guess it has been much more than 6 months, since he really showed any ambition to change jobs, help around the house, go to school, teach guitar, or practice or go to karate class. He says there’s nothing wrong and he just feels tired and just wants to rest. We went to our regular psychiatrist visit a couple of months back, and he said everything was fine to the psychiatrist. I was tempted to say more, but decided to let some time past to see what would happen. Still little change. At one time he told me he was hesitant to practice karate because it got him worked up. (If you don’t know a little of my husband’s history, he has Bipolar I Disorder. And often I don’t talk much about it because he’s been stable without problems until now.) He was afraid the mania would take hold of him. I now wonder if that is why he has avoided the other areas also. Haven’t seen any significant mania symptoms for months. It feels more like a depressive phase. He doesn’t want to read or have any hobbies. I want him to be happy, but I don’t understand exactly whats going on or how to help without upsetting him. He doesn’t spend much time with our son either. That also saddens me. He says our son doesn’t show interest in him, but my husband doesn’t even seem to try much to be interesting. We still go out to eat the three of us and watch movies, but not much else other than go to school and work. I wonder what kind of example this is for my son. I really do need to finish school, so I can dedicate more of my time to my family. My son is doing well in school and he enjoys karate, gaming, reading, computers, and playing his clarinet. I believe he will be fine, he is a smart kid. I’m worried about my husband. He’s turning out like his father. Work and TV and that’s it. I don’t want him to do that because he is scared of the bipolar or for any reason. I’m not sure what to do. I just had to vent and type this short post to express myself and keep myself from getting depressed at my husband’s situation. I’m at work now, but I am having difficulty concentrating thinking about my husband. Feeling like crying because I love him and want to help, but don’t know how. Like always, I believe, my family and I will find a way to resolve this problem in a postive way, but right now (despite my own sucesses at work, school, and motherhood) I’m feeling kind of miserable.
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