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Just-A-Quote #36

“Stay afraid, but do it anyway. What’s important is the action. You don’t have to wait to be confident. Just do it and eventually the confidence will follow.”

Carrie Fisher


Just-A-Quote #21

“You who are suffering and read this, turn your attention to the way you think, not to your feelings. Come to terms with your attitude, and your feelings will look after themselves.”

Dr. Claire Weekes


Lonliness

“They cannot scare me with their empty spaces
Between stars—on stars where no human race is.
I have it in me so much nearer home
To scare myself with my own desert places.”
Robert Frost

Road to Grand CanyonI took this picture when my husband and I were driving to the Grand Canyon from Las Vegas during our honeymoon. I remembered it when I read the Robert Frost quote above, so I searched in my box of old photos and scanned it. The quote, I found when I searched for loniliness quotes on Goodreads. I thought is was perfect to express my experience with lonliness. My lonliness seems to often follow a bout of anxiety or depression that leads me to isolate myself. The isolation initially feels comforting compared to the frightful feeling I get when I’m severely anxious or depressed and around people outside of my husband and son. So to me being alone can, like a desert, be both beautiful and sad. In case you’re worried, lately, this severe anxiety/depression only seems to come along once a month during PMS. So, the isolation and lonliness doesn’t last very long. Before, it seemed more frequent. I guess the years of faith, experience, medications, and therapy have helped.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Lonliness

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Feeling Fear

“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”
Nelson Mandela

20130905-170244.jpgI took the above photo yesterday while waiting for a class to start. Since I started graduate school in 2010, I’ve had to feel fear many times in classrooms like the one above. The fear has gradually decreased in intensity over time. I owe the decrease to facing the feared presentation, discussion, assignment, or exam despite the fear. And I’ve learned that the fear may never completely go away, but I must go on and do what I have to do despite the fearful feeling. My history of panic disorder and social anxiety has made accepting that lesson very difficult, but as time goes on it’s becoming easier to accept.  Using Mr. Mandela’s words, I guess I’ve had to muster up a little courage and bravery to get through school.

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Inspired by

Ese’s Weekly Shoot & Quote Challenge

This week’s prompt – Feel

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Stage Fright

Teleport me, please!
Sweaty, trembling, light, confused.
End near? Yes, relief!

This week’s Haiku Heights prompt is Rescue. For more information on participating in Haiku Heights and rules of writing a Haiku click on the badge below.


Attempting to Capture the Moon

“Develop a passion for learning. If you do, you will never cease to grow.”
-Anthony J. D’Angelo

For a long time, I have wanted to get a nice picture of the moon, but I have never been able to with my iPhone camera. So Wednesday evening, I tried out my new camera on night mode in an attempt to capture the moon. Remember, I am a beginner with the DSLR camera. I have much to learn. And although my camera is for beginning DSLR users, it is still complicated. And I just got the camera a few days ago. In order to make the best use of my camara, I have been reading the Life Magazine Guide to Digital Photography by Joe McNally. One of the first things the author says to do is just get use to the camara on automatic or basic modes for the first couple of hundred photos or so. Then you can slowly learn the different technical settings. So that’s what I have been doing. Snapping pictures on automatic mode and letting the camara do the technical stuff. I think the photo below is my best one out of the nine moon shots I took. I was aiming for a simple photo of the moon. It turns out I got some sort of abstract painting looking thing with some wiggly lines in there. I’m not sure what caused the small white wiggly lines. And I captured a piece of the top of my house. But, I think the clouds and ring around the moon give a nice unintended effect. What do you think? Be honest. I have read that making mistakes on purpose is a good way to overcome anxiety. So, this particular post is a good exercise for me in overcoming my frequent fear of making mistakes in public while I learn about photography. One thing is for sure, I’ve learned that daytime or lighted indoor photography is easier than nighttime photography.

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