“…to repeat monotonously some common word, until the sound, by dint of frequent repetition, ceased to convey any idea whatever to the mind…”
–Edgar Allen Poe
Earlier this year, I took the photo above while looking out a window waiting for a class to start. You can see the reflection of my shoes on the lower right corner. I thought of this photo when I saw Ese’s prompt for this week. I played around with the photo on my phone’s Snapseed app to make it black and white and give it a confused feeling. It reminds me of feeling stuck and obsessed within one’s thoughts and hesitating to act. And I think the quote from the Edgar Allen Poe poem also gives some description of this feeling. The times when I have felt both anxious and depressed, I also become obsessive. When I become depressed my concentration seems to diminish, and my thoughts seem to go into a swirling loop. Like the photo above shows, I’ll stare and obsess over my options and worries instead of walking down the path and taking action. Sometimes I’m able to distract, think, or pray myself out of it. But sometimes it’s too overwhelming to snap out of it, and those times I’m stuck until this altered state passes. The depression, anxiety, and obsessiveness eventually pass, but together they literally create a useless or meaningless feeling of having a wall, or window, between me and motion.
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This week’s prompt – Obsession